Right Now: an Index

Anxiety

Davis

Arms

Change

desperate for

in need of

seasons

The Lakes of Canada, The Innocence Mission (see also song)

Contemplative

Do I Dare Disturb The Universe?

Davis (see also anxiety, excitement, fear)

Desire

Can't Be Sure, The Sunday's

free from

horrible

Excitement

Davis

future, the

Existence

because of Love

hard

impossible

love because of

Faith

in God, in oneself, in others

Fear

Davis

tomorrow

Feeling

.like a thirsty man's canteen

.like a t.s. eliot poem

.like i'm waiting for something that i want so badly to show up and i'm 99% sure that it won't but i ignore that and wish on the 1%

.like the keys of a piano

.like the strings of a cello

.like when its 12 AM and i lethargically tread the supermarket aisles searching blindly through products and products not knowing what i'm looking for

.like when my insides are itching for me to do SOMETHING

Hand to face

Introspective

Kozelek, Mark

have you forgotten

revelation big sur

tonight in bilbao

Laughing at myself

Love

appreciation of another human being's existence

Baha'u'llah

existence

God

selflessness

unconditional

Mail

Memories

December 2007 - January 2008

January, March 2007

Summers: 2000, 2004, 2005, 2007

NABI

heart

longing

loss

love

soul

Poetry

Eliot, T.S.

language of the heart

Stafford, William - An Oregon Message

Power Transitions Theory

Progress

improvement

in need of

mistakes

now please.

Prelude in D flat major, Chopin (see also song)

seasons

urgent

Salad

spinach, gouda (aged), bagel chips, salt, pepper, olive oil, balsamic vinegar

State

of mind

place?

unexplainable

So tired that closed eyes hurt

draineddddddddddddd

Song

can't be sure, the sundays (see also desire)

guilty cubicles, broken social scene

prelude in D flat major, Chopin (see also progress)

ratatat - all of it...

sufjan stevens - all of it...

the lakes of canada, the innocence mission (see also change)

Tiersen, Yann

comptine d'un autre ete

jours triste, les

moulin, le

words

frankenstein

great gatsby, the

sun also rises, the

Words

conversation shared between human beings free of inhibitions, facades and assumptions

Prayers & Meditations

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"The eyes are not here

There are no eyes here

In this valley of dying stars"

-t.s.eliot, the hollow men

(thoughts provoked: the [S]tars are only dying because they've left minds, "sightless, unless/the eyes reappear")

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"i'm counting it out

i'm counting it out

i'm working it out inside"

-sufjan stevens