2:19 am

seascape|sea escape

...

to be here. to be now.

i am standing in a circle. the world is spinning around me.

i dare not close my eyes.

the rain is pouring. the rain|patience|detachment|humility|care is pouring.

my mind is frantic. my face is pale. my heart is shaking her head. my soul is whispering and i am trying to listen. but my mind is frantic.

take it in.

take it in.

T A K E I T I N.

time. i am fooled by you. rather, i blame my foolishness on you.

admit it me. i am foolish.

take it in.

i am grateful for the set sun. i can take each choice. decision.

hold it up to the moonlight. "how do you fare?"

"just because i'm losing, doesn't mean i'm lost."

the circle cracks. light gleams through. it wins.

i am floating on a bed of light.

whispers.

"take it in"

"good things come to those who wait"

take it in and let it live. give it home.

....

i went to the sea once for the sole purpose to free myself.

i placed my feet on the shore and let each tide renew me.

the sea knows my shape. it remembers.

it never disappears. the ocean. she sweeps the shore eternally.

cleansing. overcoming. surging. ablutions.

...

to be here. to be now.

i am scanning every corner.wall.ceiling.floor. 

this is old. throw it out. this needs to be reexamined. keep it in your pillowcase. you never used this anyway. toss. you've kept this long enough. share it.

cleansing.

paving. for bigger.better.lovelier.patient-worthy.softer.compassionate things.