when you know you're home.

a sort of now

where i've been:

i've just been on top The Mountain. elevated, hovering above earth. 

Skies - a blue i'd never ever seen before. a blue you know has More beyond it. beyond you see the Moon and you anticipate the reality of Stars.  

The evening's cold Air has a quality of holding you. putting hands on shoulders and whispering this is home.

the Trees must have hearts because i left my thoughts and prayers at their roots and things turned okay.

what i've witnessed:

120 Souls. SOULS.

how a grove of redwoods can silence a world.

hearts in hands. offerings.

Happiness.

inspiration beyond measure.

vulnerability met with Love.

True. Pure. Real Love.

transformation.

falling walls. and shining lights. (the unveiling of hearts)

where i am now:

my Relationship feels more real than it ever has before.

my eyes have never been brought to so many necessary tears.

i have left the Mountain and i refuse to lose the elevation.

i am now realizing why i've never wanted to unpack my suitcase.

i know what it feels like to belong to a Unit.

i am sure of what it means to be a Baha'i woman now.

there is a flood of hope that is surging into my heart right now.

it really is so much more than these words.

...

where i am.

there is a surge of sadness felt when descending the Mountain.

the first things you see are gas prices and shoppers. advertisements and freeways.

then you get to the airport. this medium that connects people. and you feel stuck.

because you are only an hour away from home and Home.

so then you tell yourself. Home can be anywhere. it really just depends on what you make of it. mentally. emotionally. spiritually.

so you go home. with hopes of making it feel like Home.

i didn't look out the window on this car ride. and when i got to my room i had forgotten about all the things inside of it.

1 week and all these things felt|feel unnecessary.

i replay the week in my head over and over and over.

last year the energy lasted for a good 6 months.

it feels different this time.

i feel different this time.

i've seen hearts like i've never seen before.

completely humbling.

i just pray i never lose this feeling of elevation.