where it is|getting here.

ch ch ch ch changes

......

today.

i am tempted to write using "you" instead of "i"

removing myself somehow. perhaps its easier to digest.

but never quite as satisfying.

...........

now, i feel the effects of time. today was about transitions. getting the things i need to move from A to B easier. a blanket. a dress. the last visit to the laemmle for a while. a note. a song or two or three or four. the book.

today was about looking. seeing where it is i've arrived.

the spectrum of feelings i've felt over the last year.

wondering, "what is it that gets me here?"

and then i study what that means.

what it means to move from A to B. what it feels to move from A to B.

it is the space between the end of one chapter and the start of a new one.

it is my head turning around as i cross the street and seeing where my feet tread.

it is the beginning vocals in Reckoner by Radiohead.

it is leaving a place for the second time.

it is reading about someone else's chapters.

it is being asked to dance.

it is closing eyes and hearing.

it is hearing a song in the same place a year later and feeling the exact opposite of low.

it is passing a note to a loved one.

it is the elevation i felt last week and refuse to let go of.

it is understanding the implications of 'practical'.

it is feeling hope for strangers.

hello. life is happening.