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its scary when it gets too hard. like you're running towards something and you just have to stop abruptly. and that losing of momentum and braking is frightening. its unstable and you don't know if you can stand on two feet for much longer. so you turn around and run back. and your heart is pounding and your knees are shaking and your eyes are dry and not only do they want to cry but your heart does too. and she's mad because you never listen to her like you should. shes always right. she's only capable of love. nothing less. so you go back to where you came from and you sit. first you catch your breath. then you apologize to your heart. then you make a list of things you'll never do again. ever.