ramblings on everythings

why its always in my purse

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1. if all creation is a reflection of God's beauty, how can anyone be ugly?

2. i love to hear what you think is beautiful.

3. when i say 'you', i mean all.

4. when i say 'i love to hear', i mean tell me.

5. i slept for 18 hours yesterday. i didn't wake up once. i don't like it.

6. i once abused sleep and dreams were taken from me.

7. there are quite a many ways the wind could be knocked out of you. none of which are pleasant.

8. i regret any amount of time where i look back and feel as though i floated through it and came out without gaining. 

9. i'm still deciding whether or not regret is something i want to even question.

10. i wish i could say i've read every book on my bookshelf.

11. i am addicted to books. the purchase of, the smell of, the look of, the feel of, the content within, the ideas provoked by...

12. i wish i could be a librarian and a curator and florist.

13. i wish i had the time and knowledge to garden.

14. a month ago i looked at water completely differently. for some reason it has altered my universe.

15. why am i so sure i will travel to the moon and beyond in my lifetime?

16. things we are made of, (maybe you didn't know): glass(hearts, lungs, stomachs...). stars(pupils...). salt('ye are the salt of the earth. if the salt has lost its savour, wherewith shall it be salted?'). rose petals(eyelids. nails...). wildflowers(hair. irises...)

17. i have realized that because i am an only my life is very different than yours. it always will be. but i have also realized that it is also very much the same. and it will always grow to be.

18. i am remembering to let go. to experience what it is like to have life. beauty. love. happiness flow through me instead of clutching onto it like lightning bolts i'm too afraid to let go of.

19. love is a mix tape.

20. i'm really practicing listening. i really want to do this better. sometimes i have to close my eyes or else they get in the way.

21. i need to climb more mountains.