i've been meaning to tell you.

Dearests,

it is important for you to realize now that you will never, ever, ever in a million years fathom my love for you.

life is beautiful. we get trees and stars. ice cream. magnificent books. we get sunny days and rainy days. we get to sleep in and we get to wake up early for something worth waking up for. and we get museums and tv shows that move us to tears.smiles.theedgeofourseats. moving movies and the periodic table of elements. parents. cute fluffy animals. perfect white tshirts. words. tomorrows. memories. dried flowers and leaves that when you see take you back to places you keep tucked in that special room in your heart. hearts. paris. central park. seattle. haifa. autumn. long xia. unagi. hot wings. dads pasta. fruit smoothies. journals. cameras. bookstores and libraries. blossoming flowers. prayer books. snow....

life is so beautiful. but.

but -

friends. friends only make beautiful more beautiful. i would bet that the adjectives that truly and accurately describe friends has not been placed on earth. i think they sit on clouds above stars. where wind sparkles and the sound of cello strings is the air. and footsteps are the strokes of piano keys. 

perhaps in some life i'll be able to put you into words that do a justice, but for now.

know that i love you beyond belief. and ill always have a place in my heart for you. i say that, rather than 'i hold you in my heart', because when i realized how much i loved you, you shined. and when you shined, i saw the outline of your wings. and when i saw the outline of your wings, i knew that no one could ever hold you down. no one should ever hold you down. not even i.

i am so blessed to have you all flying in my life.

i will miss you terribly.

with Love,

A