this is not what i envisioned

now, where were we?

places i've been (how to measure the time)
off the map and draining my memories
here (love 'em 'til your heart leaks)
lost in Bewilderment
Fright
I Don't Know
at sea (it takes an ocean not to break)
in arms
becoming in gardens


||  sleep lightly  ||
your entirety could fall asleep for hours as your dreams run their course and then s u d d e n l y you're wide awake

all the thoughts you've kept at a distance.you've tried burying deep in the sea.

are now sitting on your chest forcing you awake. 

just. like. that.

and now, even your rest is preoccupied.

things i hope to accomplish in 2013

say little, mean lots

relearn to exercise(apply) my heart

the art of forgetting

read the books

write it down

how/when to invest importance into things

how/when to remove importance from things

start

finish

get lost

get found

understanding > understood

sleep smiling to wake up smiling

"i don't know about my love

i don't know about my loving anymore"

-James Blake

titles i knew and liked

Connor Evert's

   Do You Love Me Still

   This Is Not What I Envisioned

   We Seem To Be Drawing Apart

   Dependency, Love Of The Lost

   Adjustment Alone As Always

John Berger's

    Another Way of Telling

Paul Klee's

    Possibilities at Sea

Dario Robleto's

    Some Longings Survive Death

    Time Measures Nothing But This Love

    Words Tremble With The Thoughts They Express

    Woman Negotiates With Grief

Feist's

    The Limit To Your Love