Here goes...

So.

(I intended to begin this blogging business in the fall, when I transfer to UC Davis but I just couldn't wait... I started reading my friend Ashley's blog religiously (literally checking it twice a day in hopes of an awesome new story to make me laugh, cry, think, research...) and I became super interested in the idea.

Now all I can think about is, "wait, what if nobody reads my blog?" or "wait, what if people read my blog?!!" 

Whether it's viewed or not, what a great way to vent, share, journal, and document!

So... here goes!)

My life has changed/improved tremendously within the last year and a half.  I've traveled, gotten into an amazing university, strengthened my relationships with friends 

and my parents, discovered beautiful Words... But most importantly I've been challenged.

I remember being a child thinking that challenges and tests were curses that I could try to sweep under a mat. I've grown only realizing that the more I swept under the mat the greater the obstacle I encountered when walking across the mat. I've come to grasp that life is not only a never-ending challenge, it is a beautiful one. One may call that an oxymoron but I call it the Beautiful Challenge.

So. With these challenges my mind has grown, my outlook-expanded, my theories-revised, my heart-dilated, my skin-thickened, my eyes-widened, and my soul-strengthened.... hopefully.

In December, I started thinking about how specifics effect the general big picture. How one rumor changes the big picture, or how one glare changes the big picture. You know those commercials where the guy holds the door open for the child, then that child smiles at that lady, then that lady lets that dude into her lane, then that dude.... I was thinking of how that works with negativity.

Then I started freaking out. That's why we are where we are today. Prejudice, racism, sexism, road rage, desire, self, hate, stranger, materialism, take, ugly, and want have replaced pure Love, trust, give, accept, learn, grow, humble, familiar, unity, peace, care, beauty...

What if everyone in the world, at the same time did one selfless, kind and loving 

act to another? I think the world would be so electrified that no one would know what to do with it. It would be so beautiful and attractive and feel so good that people would want to feel that all day every day.

Love. that's all it is. Love is the appreciation of another's existence. The desire to be of service and of Servitude...

Love cures, feeds, heals, elates... love will solve everything that needs solving.

all want love. all deserve love. all should love. all need love.

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tuning: Tiny Cities by Sun Kil Moon